Thursday, August 21, 2008


It’s these days that I wonder why God called me to work with CHD families. I want to help so desperately, but at the same time, kicking myself for wanting to. Tim has said to me before that God will give me the strength for what He’s called me for. It's His strength I must draw from today as I face another family with a loss.

What a horrible monster, this CHD world. One that shares in just as many tragedies as triumphs. One that keeps you from ever feeling a sense of calm... Always lurking in your mind, "what if." God be with each family facing this giant and who becomes a part of our world.

Goodnight sweet Tommy, save a hug in heaven for me......

Thursday, August 7, 2008

In Love

Yes, "In Love." I'm in love with my life. This morning, I've enjoyed a kiss from my husband, hugs from my children, and the sounds of them playing together. Of course, the getting along was short lived, as usual. But even in the middle of the kids arguing over toys or what channel to watch, I'm in love.

I woke up next to my wonderful husband, Tim. God sent him to me during a dark time in my life. Through Tim's love, I've rediscovered the love God has for me. Tim is my best friend. He is the home I've always wanted and the love I've always needed. He's the father of my children and our earthly provider. He works hard to make a life where I can stay home and raise our children.

My beautiful daughter, KK, is becoming a "tween" and coming into her own way of doing things. Her independence is amazing. She is brave, strong, and confident. All the things I wanted to be in my own childhood, I see in her.

My handsome son, Ave, will be 7 in a couple of weeks. He is loving and strong. His ability to see beautiful things in everyday happenings is beyond my understanding. Just yesterday, he looked at me and said, "Mommy your glasses look like butterflies on your face. It's really pretty." Who would have thought glasses could look like butterflies?

My precious son, Kaden. The child God gave me twice. Once in birth and again when his heart was healed. I see God's many promises fulfilled in his life. Kaden is bold, daring, and a fighter. His strength goes beyond his years and his laughter is one of the highlights of my day.

In my family and home, I find God's abundant love. I'm in love with my family and the ebb and flow of daily life being a wife and mother.